Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Married!
Oh goodness! I can hardly believe that I am married! It's weird...but nice at the same time. I love having him with me all the time! It's great! Roomates on the other hand...while the money is good...the company is not so much. I have wanted more than anything to just have some good friends...but friends are never good to you and that is a fact. At some point in the relationship you will always get hurt. Sigh...I don't understand it...I already hate my new ward and I am trying to figure out how to move. It would be real convenient if the boundaries could move and I wouldn't have to. I already know that I am not going to fit in and I just absolutely hate it. Everyone is old and has kids and knew me when I was a kid. I am not a kid. I have changed so very much in just the past year. People there do not know me. I hung out with a yound couple that was a friend of mine in high school today. Surely I would fit in with them...NOPE! I just don't fit in...I have a few select friends from the branch tat I fit in with but even that wasn't very much. My social life is going to consist of work and chrys...and only chrys when he isnt at work or doing school work. I like the honeymoon...but after that I am not a big fan of married life. We are never going to see each other...and now I can't hang out with my friends because everything that we used to do was a singles activity. I think I really do want to move. I am depressed before going to the new ward... I just don't want to do it. I just want everyone to be happy (incluiding me!) As we have established in earlier posts...I am just not a happy person. Oh well!
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If you ask me this sounds like a self-fulfilling prophesy. Your ward can't be that bad, come attend a ward in Utah...talk about scary. Hold on, once you adapt things will get better, but only if you let it.
I'm sorry to hear about your frustrations, but I can tell you that a friend will never let you down..I know this because I have a few of them. No matter what, or how much time has past, I know I have these certain friends that will be there. Also, I am in a ward that I grew up in also and I went through those same feelings..wanting to move, people not knowing who I am now..but I realized that time will tell the truth of all things..hang in there and I promise you, that your first year of marriage will not be easy...it takes a lot of time and effort...truly, I feel for you.
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