Gratitude

Work is stressful...I will definately say that. However, today was a magnificent day. A guy that I have been working with the past couple of weeks pulled me aside. He wheeled himself into the hall and said, "Hey little missy I want to talk to you for a couple of minutes." He wasn't even my patient today...but he wanted to talk to me. I went to his room.

He said,"I just wanted you to know that you have impacted my life. You have helped me in so many ways that you do not even know. You are such a sweet young lady and I wish you all the best in all of your future goals. Don't be afraid to go for what you want. You have a good head on your shoulders and I know that you will go far in this life. Thank you for all that you have done for me. You have helped me through one of the worst times of my life and I will be forever grateful to you for that. I hope to see you around."
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He was going home today. I will miss him. To tell you the truth...we didn't even get along the first two days. He was just so demanding and seemingly ungrateful. Wow. That's all I can say. This is what I work for. I want to make a difference. Sometimes it is easy to walk through life not realizing what an impact we might have on anothers life.

Not everyone is as vocal with their gratitude as this gentleman, but although we may not hear it...I am sure that we are helping others. I also think of how this gentleman made my whole night better. I know that I need to make sure that I tell others when they help me. I am blessed by great people every single day. It really does help when people take the time to point out what a difference you are making.

We all help each other. We all need each other. When we work together; we have the potential to change the world.

Addicted

I find myself addicted to him. I have a deep longing just to talk to him and to hear his thoughts. It doesn't matter what we talk about; I just like talking to him. I know his thoughts and I know that it will never work out between us, but I still feel like I need him. Why, Why, Why!!!! Why do I constantly find myself going back to that person that has no desire to want me the way that I want him? I think of how life could be. I think it could work. Then I also think about what it is that I really want in an eternal companion...shouldn't motivation to succeed and be better every single day be a part of that list. Does that type person actually exist?

So a slight change of subject...I was in this class the other day that really made me think about life. Someone said...we are nurses. We have the ability to impact a persons life every single day for good or for bad. We are only human and of course bad things are going to happen. We are going to make mistakes and peoples lives are going to be impacted by those mistakes. The goal is to take what you learn from that mistake and be a better perseon because of it. Be a better nurse tomorrow than you were today. This is so true. We as humans make so many mistakes and it is easy to get frustrated, but it is ok to make mistakes. We just need to learn from them.

I love my job. I love having the ability to help people. The bonds that I form with my patients is amazing. I look forward to being able to see that person day after day and when that day comes that I get to see them go home...it makes my whole countenance glimmer with happiness that maybe...just maybe...I helped them in some way.

I know that I am a blessed daughter of my Heavenly Father and that he has a plan for me. I know things will work out in due time and that I will be happy in the end. I am happy now.